Driving back from a great

Driving back from a great dinner with Andy, Mark and Dave at Glorias I was having a blast on LBJ heading west. I was accelerating with wanton abandon and weaving faster than the sisters of Fate. I wasn’t alone as another car and a motorcycle had recognized the great opportunity that the typically languorous LBJ presented us.

If I can’t drive my car like I’m in a video game, then what’s the point of driving.

Bigror, light of my life,

Bigror, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin. My soul.

She was Ror, plain Ror, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. She was Lola in slacks. She was Dolly at school. She was Rorie on the dotted line. But in my arms she was always Bigror.

:) added for the V. Nabokov impaired among us.

Rorie called Mark today, I’m sure she meant to call me :) but the phone made it back to me eventually. They have openings for Vignette programmers at Southwestern Bell. She says she’s even part of the interview process and makes suggestions on who to hire. Could it be that my job woes have reached an end? I will have to take another look at my resume.

Hmm, I am out of

Hmm, I am out of Huntsville but I don’t really feel any better. Now to make matters worse it seems like I’ve brought the Huntsville virus with me as a few people here seem to be feeling sort of down. I feel like I’m suffocating inside a bell jar just watching everyone through the glass. Please let this just be a week long thing, and not the beginning of the mute agony that persisted for years in Birmingham. I just need that one little spark to get me going again. Maybe this is the inevitable low to counter Monday’s unbelievable high.

Tuesday Christina and I swapped

Tuesday Christina and I swapped a bunch of emails which ended with her saying she would call me that night or Wednesday morning. I sort of didn’t expect her to call as she hasn’t initiated any communication except for email for the past two or three weeks. For my part I had been stoically reminding myself that I would not call her or go see her because dammit I’m not going to play the wide-eyed puppy dog chasing after her. I successfully followed that plan, despite longing to be near her again.

Tonight I made the 650

Tonight I made the 650 mile or so trek from Huntspatch to Dallas, Texas and was privileged to see Honchie perform at Club Dada. I think a definite highlight of the show had to be their version of the Knight Rider theme song, complete with a DJ in the background adding scratches. Although the lead guitarist, James Pafford, made the night special during the “Potato in my pocket” song by shouting out my name during the song’s chorus. I’m sure you know the song it has a line like: “Are you the reason, or aren’t you the reason I woke up with a potato in my pocket.” They were to perform from 10pm to 2am. Dave and I left around 12:45am so I hope they made it. They had a couple of great spontaneous songs. At one point a bicycle cop came into the club and they took off into a song about him performing his duties and catching bad people and upholding the law. He left while they were still singing it though. Then they had a couple more really fun songs that they sang to people on their way out which appeared to be put together on the spot. They are very talented. Of course, their drummer seems to like Neil Peart so maybe I’m biased.

Last night I went to

Last night I went to go see Radiohead perform in Atlanta at Stone Mountain. It was a great show. I went with Randy, Michael, and Michael’s friend Mary who lives in Atlanta. I felt like I had orchestrated a symphony and put all the pieces in the right place. I don’t think things could have gone any better than they did. I think this post-show buzz is due in large part to the fireworks between Mary and Michael.

i've been reading through Kathy's

i’ve been reading through Kathy’s emails to me again. she was the best friend i ever had. i haven’t let go, or whatever they fucking call it, because i still feel like i could get in touch with her if i just looked hard enough, or was clever enough. i’m still awed by Kathy’s genius and perseverance. i…we could have been so happyangrysadecstaticinspiredloved if we had committed to one and other. there at the end she found that for me and i said no. too scared, too average. what do you do when the person you should have been with dies before you truly understood how deeply connected the two of you were? i guess you learn to be alone…maybe you play with the half-hearted xerox copies of Kathy that you meet over the years and pretend.

I didn't quite make it

I didn’t quite make it to Nashville today. About 2/3rds of the way there I become overly concerned with my cars timing belt snapping so I headed back. I’ve really got to get that thing fixed this monday before I head to Atlanta to go see Radiohead. It looks like I have three extra tickets that I have to figure out something to do with before then since Tanna and Damon didn’t call me today. I came back to Huntspatch and went over to Michael’s house and we played BG2 a little bit and talked most of the time.

Today I am heading out

Today I am heading out of town. I am going to drive up to Nashville and play around downtown for awhile. I’m confused about what comes next. I have so many things I want to work on, but I’ve got to figure out how to take care of some basic necessities like where I’m going to live in Dallas. Also I want to close things out with Christina in an amicable and friendly way, but I have this rage in me. Something must be out of balance in me for that rage to be there. At any rate, I must say that it is nice to be exiting a relationship with someone and I don’t feel at fault for anything. I wish all my relationships could end so cleanly.

I saw Planet of the

I saw Planet of the Apes last night. I saw it the way I like seeing movies best, a virgin. I had avoided hype, spoilers and news about the movie. I went knowing that it was a remake, and who some of the cast and crew are and that was it. I went with Michael and some of his friends to the 10:10 showing. I was pleasantly surprised by the opening score and I was reminded by the credits that Danny Elfman does all of Tim Burton’s movies. The score provided a nice mix of primal base with the drums and the brass brought in a feeling of cool technology which fit the themes behind the film effectively. The movie unfolded fairly traditionally after that with the first ten minutes of shots establishing things that would be important later in the film. The dialogue was fairly tight and again was there to set the scene for later things in the movie. The editing for the rest of the film seemed to be fairly tight, and it appeared that a whole section of the movie dealing with a love interest between Leo and Daena was cut out. One thing that seems to stand out in contrast to the entire rest of the movie is the ending. Just what that ending means, other than some winking nod to the original, is beyond me.