While at the doctor's office

While at the doctor’s office yesterday I started thinking about the three month life span my relationships have had the past year or so. (Why wonder about this at the doctor’s office? Maybe my mind was in a “let’s fix things” mode.) One of the things I wondered was if it started after Kathy’s death.

Last night I had a dream. In the dream I learned that Kathy hadn’t really died back in June 2000. It didn’t matter though, because in my dream she had just killed herself. I found my parents and they were upset and crying because she had called them looking for me. I think she’d left an answering machine message like “What are you doing with her?” In the dream I understood that “her” didn’t mean Leia, it meant anyone.

Two things to note: I never remember my dreams. They never seem to correspond to my real life. Where does this fit in?